ok ok enough time has passed. that whoora ra-ra-ra- cmbaya, dont worry be happy garbage has worn off. ok. for a lack of better words, shit is fucked up. still. it was real cute when obama got the nomination for the 44th president. i must admit i was wrapped up in it, and truth be told i liked it. however, revolutionary minds can not remain idle and subdued due to the mass media's watered down pacification of the people. damn people we have a voice. we have each other. we need to put the two together and rise above as one human race. so much stuff lately has left me utterly disgusted in how savage man-"kind" can act. things just do not seem real anymore. everyday the news is sensationalizing one story after another. it makes me think when is it going to be enough? i may digress for a moment only to briefly remind one and all that his imperialist majesty king bush is still in office no matter if he is a lame duck at that. may i run down his impressive resume: the iraq war, the LACK of intelligence which lead to 9/11, the disgusting mis-management of katrina, and the economy. i am letting him off easy because there is so much more that should be brought to light however those are just some of the front page issues. and that bastard oliver stone, that dude had me fooled. congrats. my hat goes off to oliver stone the con artist he is. i paid for that measly ticket to go watch "w" only to sit there and watch the credits roll at the end and feel compassion for the situation and for bush. damn! what a bambozelment! oliver stone went way, way to kind on bush. as of recent i have gone through what you may want to call an awakening of some sort to the practice of non- violence. i am adamantly against the use of any violence, however what george w should have coming to him....how could one man fucked up as much as he could have. it is truly remarkable in all the most negative ways. and he is going to be put out to graze at his new ranch in texas, while people and families throughout the world have been turned upside down due to his decision making. children have lost parents in a war that was created on the pretense of mis-information. some men and women will never have the motor functions they left to fight the war with. all because this paramecium brained individual was given false information. wow. i sit here an i write this for the fact that at the moment i do not know what to do. and that is a lot to admit. one day i hope and strive to be in a position where i can make a difference and have an impact. for now i peck away at these computer keys, releasing emotions that have been stirred up inside. maybe i feel helpless for i do not know how far a voice can reach or who it may effect. maybe it is a lack of capital which in society is associated with power. money is a necessary evil in which when used to buy goods is ok, however when used to gain power is not. i am truly dumbfounded as in what is next for us. part of me is scared. actually a lot of me is scared. there is so much natural beauty around us however when i look at man a wave of nausea and disgust come over myself. the garbage that is pumped of the television is abominable. the music that is traversing over the airwaves is soft, emotionless, and watered down. it's just so shocking how so much of what represents our world today is just so marginal and sub par. issues of race and ethnicity are as alive today as they were in the past. women are still marginalized in our society through reinforced images and thoughts through the mass media. there just seems to be a lack of integrity and no nobility in acts carried out by humans. i have great friends and family in my life that i am so fortunate for however there is a lot that pains me. i just feel as if we are missing our point and purpose as human beings in our very short existence on planet earth. please keep in mind that no matter who you are, or what you may do, or where you come from, that one day we will all be reduced down to nothing but dust. so think then "what is my purpose in life?" that expensive hand-bag that that was just bought, when you are dust do think that really matters? those flashy belongings that were paid a lot of money for, does that really matter when you are just going to be dust? being popular for the wrong reasons, will that matter when you are dust? my point is that the only thing that will matter is the legacy that you as a human have left behind and the resulting generation that has been created by you that will inherit the earth and the values in which they will hold true because of the teachings provided to them. power should no longer grow out of the barrel of a gun. the concept of power should come from the unifying of human beings and the thoughts shared amongst one another. and the integrity and preservation of culture should be upheld 100% of the time. as hard as it may be sometime, always we should try at least to do the right thing.